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Cold turkey

Decided to go off my meds. 

Lots of reasons. I know it's not wise, but it's what I have decided is right for me.  

How do I cope with the side effects of no meds and how long will it last? 

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Re: Cold turkey

You do realise you are completely nuts doing this @Former-Member 😘😜. But you’re not the only one to do it. I went off an antidepressant that is notoriously bad for side effects coming off it. I got them but pushed through. Didn’t function for about three weeks. Pretty much bed ridden for the first week. 

On a serious note I know you have a few to come off. Just wanting you to reconsider how you do this. I just came off one and that was hard. 

Good to see you around. 

 

Former-Member
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Re: Cold turkey

I'm just sick of taking them and I'm not sure what things will be like without them.
I'm not sure I deserve to be happy. I'm a useless failure of a person and these meds are artificially making me feel something different. I am a bad person and I should feel that way. I should be aware of what I am.
I just want to make going off them less painful.

Re: Cold turkey

Hey gorgeous @Former-Member. I’ve known you for a bit.  When this thinking happens for you it’s often a sign things aren’t going so well. I also know it often happens around exam time when things are really stressful. The stress is high enough in my house now at uni exam time with my kids. I can imagine how hard it is for you too. It’s ok that the wheels fall off a bit now. Have you spoken to anyone about it? 

I really just want what’s best for you. 

Former-Member
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Re: Cold turkey

The thing is, it feels so real. Like I've just been walking around with my eyes shut and only just opened them.
I'm starting to think I will always feel this way deep down. I'm too scared to tell anyone. I don't want to end up in hospital.

Re: Cold turkey

You know our brains can tell us all sorts of things @Former-Member. It doesn’t always mean it right. I’m not saying you are wrong either but I know with mi it gets really tricky sometimes to know what is real. Who do you trust in your mh team the most?  

 

I have to go for a bit but will check in again soon. 

Re: Cold turkey

Hey @Former-Member what are you up to? Are you at uni? Being nosy now. 

 

PS hoping I wasn’t too direct before. It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve had to try to fetch my foot out my mouth lately. :face_with_rolling_eyes:🤦‍♀️

Former-Member
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Re: Cold turkey

I don't really know. Probably my psychiatrist.
But she doesn't really understand. All this effort all these meds just blind me to the truth. I think I'm better of being unmedicated and retreat from the world. I can't hurt anyone that way.

Re: Cold turkey

What would her response be to going off meds for a trial? I get that you’d like to know what it’s like to be unmedicated. I don’t experience the meds you do so I can’t comment. I just imagine that sometimes you want to know what the unmedicated you is like. I just think it’s pretty dangerous to go off without supervision or people knowing. 

What would you hope for being off them ? 

Former-Member
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Re: Cold turkey

It's more that I don't deserve to be on them. They are just making me think I'm a better person than I am.
I'm scum. I should be fully and emotionally cognizant of that. I deserve to feel badly. I don't deserve to be happy. I'm a bad failure of a person. I'm just lying to myself.
Why take meds when all they do is mask what shit I am.
My psych would never let me go off them.
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