Life gets to me and I feel totally crushed too. I could not feel that sense of spiritedness for a few decades during the heavy child bearing years.
So when I began to heal I found it important to communicate something positive energetic and fun to my son.
I went through a very boring, very analytical period working through all the "bad" & good and boy girl issues.
The memory of being a minor rebel gave me some satisfaction, but along with all my imperfections I wanted him to know that I was totally committed to doing the right thing by him, for what that was worth.
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