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[Swapnil]

Hi guys,

Feeling extremely depressed since last few months, not being focused on anything. Feel like I am self sabotaging my career. I am not able to get up in the morning resulting in loss of work, and have no motivation to do so. I have experienced extreme trauma during childhood, but my teenage years were okay, and I studied well, too. I am an engineer and moved to another country. Living here for 5 years and suddenly hit the rock bottom. I am not being able to do anything. My mind is stuck at the point that I think whatever I'll do, things will go wrong. Feeling like my peers are way ahead of me, and I am feeling worthless. I have lost interest in everything, not talking to people, friends, family. I am being so isolated, and I cannot talk to anyone. Feeling crazy disoriented and do not know how to get up. I am afraid of medication for anxiety and depression. Need to get up and support my family. I don't know what will happen, also have suicidal tendencies.

[TuxedoCat]

hey there @Swapnil welcome to the forums. I hope you find our special corner of the internet a welcoming and supportive place ❤️ Sounds like you have been really struggling to cope recently, so thank you for reaching out here for support. 

I know others will have a lot to offer, but thought I'd check-in too. 

I'm wondering what kind of supports or connections you have here?

I know plenty of folks here have found our drop-in counselling useful to talk through things like this. You can click here to find the phone, email and webchat information.