Back again checking in

[NatureLover]

Thanks for the update @Lilly6 ...I was so glad to hear that a tiny part of you is hopeful still. I agree that I want to talk about my feelings with my therapists too...I can see the benefits of mindfulness but am not very good at it yet. Well done for adopting the controlled breathing last night.

I'm sorry you are so depressed - it sucks, I know. I do think there is always hope and healing possible, as it happened to me when I never thought it would. But the severe depression lies to us and says there is no hope. 

Thinking of you...I'm glad you are still posting your feelings here. 

[Lilly6]

Thanks @NatureLover and yes depression definitely sucks. Just makes me feel so blah and awful and right now I can't remember not feeling this way which is sad in itself. I am so tempted everyday to just end things lately. I won't though till I get to the day I have chosen. Till then I will battle on. 

[NatureLover]

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@Lilly6 wrote:

Just makes me feel so blah and awful and right now I can't remember not feeling this way which is sad in itself. 

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That is sad to hear, @Lilly6 . I read on the other thread that you don't like taking medication...I'm curious as to why? (if you feel like replying - no worries if not)

[NatureLover]

Hi @Lilly6 ...thinking of you. Just wondering how you're feeling today?

[NatureLover]

Hi @Lilly6 ...just worrying about you. I hope you're OK...

[Former-Member]

Hey @NatureLover ❤️️

I can hear you're worried about @Lilly6. I want to assure you that mods take steps on forums and behind the scenes to support members who are at risk. But given the nature of the forums, sometimes mods and members don't know how a member is travelling. 

It can be hard to sit with. How do you support yourself when you're worried a member is vulnerable, and there's a lot of not knowing? 

[Lilly6]

Hi @NatureLover not ok but here

[Lilly6]

Hi @Former-Member @and @NatureLover thanks for thinking of me, it means a lot. I haven't been on here because things have not changed. The support here is really great, thanks💕💜💜💜

[NatureLover]

Hi @Former-Member , thanks for your concern...I'm actually OK, I can handle the worry. I do accept that I won't often know how a member is doing... How do I support myself in the uncertainty? That's a good question, I will have to give that some thought. Thanks again ❤

[NatureLover]

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@Lilly6 wrote:

Hi @NatureLover not ok but here

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I'm sorry things haven't changed... Just want you to know I'm thinking of you and sending best wishes. @Lilly6