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[Snowie]

Hi @AuntGlow 

Not good today.

I see my psych on Thursday. Well don't 'see' her, it's a telehealth appointment, which I don't like. I struggle to speak when staring at a screen. I guess it's better than nothing.

[rav3n]

it's so frustrating when those stubborn thoughts don't want to leave @Snowie the good news is that these thought patterns can be rewired, but i know it's not a quick and easy process. somedays its much harder and louder, and i'm sorry that today's one of those days. 

it is hard when what once worked for us well isn't as effective anymore. is exploring new strategies something you'd like to bring up with psych next time? i will be hopping off soon so i just wanted to say good night, i hope that a good night's sleep can help quieten those voices 💙

[Snowie]

I've been trying different things with my psych @rav3n 

Don't want to fight the battle. I know thats not helpful.

Thanks for the help, for everything

[AuntGlow]

I totally get that, it can feel quite disembodied, can't it? Did we discuss you walking and chatting with your psychologist at all? @Snowie 

And do you want to chat about what's happening for you today? 💖

[Snowie]

When I see my psych in person @AuntGlow we have gone on walks before. Never by myself.

Thanks for the offer but my heads too stuck.

Thanks for everything

[AuntGlow]

Okay @Snowie. I wonder if you would feel comfortable talking to your psychologist about some ways you can 'get into your body' during your sessions? This may help you to feel more present and connected virtually? 

I get that, I will be here tomorrow if you change your mind. 

Big hugs! 🥰

[rav3n]

hey @Snowie, hope today is a better day for you 💙 

[Eve7]

Hello @Snowie , I hope your visit with pdoc goes well.

Sending lots of love ❤️ 

[Snowie]

@Eve7 @rav3n @AuntGlow 

Pdoc appt. went ok. He increased one of my meds.

Wants me to increase ECT to every second week. I would but that puts a lot more pressure onto H. He's the one that has to take me there, wait around and drive me home. Another day he has to take of work. Just in the too hard basket at the moment. 

Called nurse on call (can't really say why on here)

Spoke to someone from SCBS.

Very tired

Won't be a late night

Hope everyone is going ok

[AuntGlow]

Good morning, @Snowie  💛

I can see that increasing ECT is a little challenging right now. You're so considerate to think about H, but I am wondering how he feels about the idea?

It's good to know you are using helplines when you need them. Please know you can always come here if you need someone to talk to in these moments. We always want to be here for you as much as we can be. 🥰