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21-01-2017 08:58 PM
21-01-2017 08:58 PM
Totally overwhelmed
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22-01-2017 09:17 AM
22-01-2017 09:17 AM
Re: Totally overwhelmed
Hi Angel80,
Lola here, one of the moderators.
I am so sorry to hear about the hard time you are having at the anneversary of the accident. Do you have someone you can talk to? Or specific counselling in relation to this?
I think you do deserve to the think about your feelings and get support. And no it is not selfish of you but it is nurturing for you to have support. Yes your daughter matters, but you will be in a better position/ frame of mind to be there for her if you take care of yourself.
regards
lola
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22-01-2017 10:08 AM
22-01-2017 10:08 AM
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22-01-2017 11:33 AM
22-01-2017 11:33 AM
Re: Totally overwhelmed
Hi @Angel80
Sounds like you are doing everything you possibly can to keep helping your daughter after a terrible accident. How does she feel about you? is she angry?
I hear how much you are feeling guilty about everything but i wonder if its actually helping you or your daughter at all to keep punishing yourself. I know its easier said than done. i can't 'just let go' of things that i feel about myself either, but keep trying to remind myself of all the self care/compassion stuff that helps me to be a good mum. I sometimes feel like people just dont get it when they say stuff like this to me... that they just don't understand the gravity of 'my' situation or something.. but at same time i know its true.
Flash backs are really hard. i struggle with these every day. I do grounding activities like looking and listening for things in the room, pushing my feet into the floor, remembering facts about myself (silly things like my bday/address/etc which is sometimes hard to do when i've gone off/into a memory). i've been doing deep breathing every hour (just several deep breaths, noticing how i'm feeling/noticing my body stuff).
are you seeing anyone to help with this? i've learnt a lot from my psychologist and hopefully will learn more/enough to be ok.
take care of you, so that you can keep taking care of your daughter.
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22-01-2017 02:50 PM
22-01-2017 02:50 PM
Re: Totally overwhelmed
Hi @Angel80 - I feel it's a perfectly normal reaction how you are feeling at the moment. I feel talking to a qualified psychological to work through your pain would be very helpful for you.
I have many past regrets in life - things I wish I could have done differently and take back. But the reality is we can only learn by our mistakes and do our best in the present to make things right. Which by the way you sound like you are doing a great job with!
You are not a selfish person - selfish people don't care. You are going beyond the call of duty because you love your daughter and you are doing all you can for her. No one can do more than that. Go easy on yourself now and take care of you too. Talk to someone when you feel the need as it's healthy. Wishing you and your daughter healing.
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22-01-2017 07:48 PM
22-01-2017 07:48 PM
Re: Totally overwhelmed
Just because your daughter suffered does not mean that you didn't suffer as well. You are still suffering.
The earlier PTSD is treated - the more likely you are to have a full recovery.
Ask your doctor for a referral to a psychologist who specialises is treating PTSD . I'd recommend one who uses EMDR - Eye Movement Desensitisation Reprogramming. Weird name. But it worked so well for me.
You have been struggling so hard for the past 2 years. The best gift you could give your daughter (& yourself) - is for you to heal your mental health. That way you will be stronger and in a better position to help her.
But please - you can't look after someone else - when you are drowning in your own pain.
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22-01-2017 08:15 PM
22-01-2017 08:15 PM
Re: Totally overwhelmed
posting your comments and writing to us is the best thing you can do and dont stop doing it, without expressing whats in your head in a safe place leaves you exsposeed keep posting..ps I am dislictic and did not speel check as in safe place ..