Morning has broken

[Snowie]

Maybe unloading onto the pdoc might help @Eve7 Sometimes just getting the words out can help.

Really need to go see mum tomorrow. Have pdoc in afternoon but just a phone appointment. Still lots to discuss. Was going to have a break from ECT but not sure he will let me now. Have ECT Friday.

[Eve7]

I am a bit scared to unload too much @Snowie  but we’ll see.

Do you think the ECT is helping? It’s a hard one I know. I haven't had any since January but I’m getting a bit edgy again.

[Snowie]

I can understand not wanting to unload too much @Eve7 Hopefully when talking to her you can come up with the right balance.

I do think ECT is helping in a way. I think if I wasn't having it monthly I would have ended up being admitted quite awhile ago. With mum being at home, I really couldn't go in. There would have been no one to give her that one on one support. Now I guess it is a little different, as I don't have to worry about her as much.

I would like to see how I go without it but at the same time I am scared to stop it. If that makes sense.

Have you talked to your pdoc about it recently?

[Eve7]

I totally understand your fear @Snowie  its hard to know what to do sometimes and it can be better to have that decision taken away from us.

My pdoc hasn’t mentioned it for a while but she does ask what do I think I need at times. I think she wants me to make the decision.

Ill have the junk cupboard cleared out tomorrow afternoon!!

[Snowie]

My pdoc has asked me quite a few times what I think about stopping or continuing it @Eve7 I really am unsure. Maybe I do need him to make the decision for me. But to do that I guess I need to tell him everything.

Hoping you do clear the junk cupboard tomorrow. Can you come and do mine next!!!

[Eve7]

Haha @Snowie . I think it would be easier to do someone else’s junk….no attachments lol

[Snowie]

Oh I think it would be so much easier to @Eve7 

If only we could do it to our head/thoughts too!

[Eve7]

Yes, that's a good idea @Snowie . I carry around so much junk inside my head. It needs a good clean out too. ECT just makes me forget things I need to remember.

The cat is fascinated with the near empty cupboard, makes me wonder what might be behind it. I was chasing him out but now I think I might wait and see if he catches anything that shouldn't be there.

[Snowie]

I do find that ECT affect my short term memory @Eve7 at times. Sometimes that can be a good thing, but it does give me the sh*ts at times.

I guess it's about the pros and cons of ECT. Yes it helps me, but at the same time it can hinder me.

Sounds like the cat has good senses. Maybe there is something hiding in there.

[Eve7]

For me ECT has had more pros than cons @Snowie 

The cat has gone to sleep so hopefully nothing was there.

I am mindlessly watching tv and not feeling at all tired tonight even though I drove to Brisbane at 6.30am today to officiate at an event. My last day of duty today so not such an early start tomorrow