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[NatureLover]

Hi @Lee82 , thanks for the update, I'm so sorry things are so bad. 😞

I'm especially sad to hear you can't pay your rent, as that seems to me to be critical as if you don't have stable housing, all the rest is much harder to cope with. The situation with your ex and the boys not wanting to visit sounds excruciating 😞

I'm also sorry your birthday was crap and that studff around Christmas is triggering 😞

I wonder if you can talk to your counsellor about the feelings regarding your Mum's cancer diagnosis? 

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@Lee82 wrote:

I have fallen way back into a deep dark depression. I have no motivation, no energy, no want, no hope. I just hate my life. Also whilst in hospital a new memory surfaced and so I am also dealing with that.I cannot concentrate properly anymore and disassociating again. Sleep again is non existent and I have no apitite at all.

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I really hope this eases soon...sending wishes 💜

[Lee82]

Hey beautiful how have you and your boy been? 
Even though I haven't been around I still think of you all the time and hoping that everything is going well for you 
sending you love and light ❤️❤️
@Anastasia 

[Lee82]

I have been lucky enough to have the help of my brother at the moment with my rent but I cannot keep relying on him to support me. 
i actually have an appointment with my psych today which I was contemplating cancelling but I think I will go. There is just so much going on at the moment I can't think straight enough to even talk. 
I hope you are doing well hun. Thinking of you always. All my love to you ❤️
@NatureLover 

[Shaz51]

Thank you for the tag my friend @Lee82 

Sending you lots of tender hugs and thinking of you lots today 🙏❤🥰

[Snowie]

@Lee82 💗💗💗💗

Wishing you a good day hon 

[Anastasia]

@Lee82 💞🙏

[Fluttershy1]

I missed you @Lee82 - stay strong hun 💜

So if your looking for a reason to stay here it is

Your wanted

Your loved

Your needed

Your worthy

Your strong

Your brave

Your kind

Your caring

Your beautiful

Your precious

Your gorgeous

Your a fighter

Your not a burden

Your not a waste of space

Your not a waste of time

Your not a waste of oxygen

Things do and will get better so just hold on okay cause it will get better

So

keep fighting

Stay strong

I love you💜

[NatureLover]

I'm glad your brother is helping out with your rent, @Lee82 ...I hope a solution becomes clear soon for the longer term.

Did you make it to your psych appt? Would writing things down for your psych to read help? 

I'm doing OK...muddling along. Sending you lots of hugs and wishes 💜

[Zoe7]

@Lee82 💖💖💖

[Zoe7]

@Bellarose75 @Lee82 Merry Christmas to you both 🎄💖